A Time when Buddha would have killed himself…

So ironic that a single seat of power displaces the quotient of right & wrong! When an army massacres it becomes an act to protect its homeland & suppress the insurgents & cleansing & what not - while the same being done without the seat of power is rebellion and terrorism and what not!

Spite to thee – to that ethnic majority – a heartless mass of barbarians acting on the fury of ethnicity  – calling themselves the followers of a noble saint who loved peace and could never stand brutality let alone to kill a life form.

Not that such a thing is happening or happened elsewhere in the world – but this – this is happening to your own people. The ones who speak your language – and hardly a few hours’ away from you!

A Different kind of loneliness…

I have it all…

A generous share of happiness, an emotional rollercoaster of a family, equal share of concerns & issues… and the most precious of all, a rational & inquisitive mind – ever in search of knowledge and the ability to contemplate and accept, with a heart that places others before self!

It’s like being in multiple planes … of existence all at the same time.

1. A very physical & emotional web of people -  family, friends & relations – a mixed conservative arena with well set bounds!
2. Another plane of objective creativity – work, futuristic things et. al. with no bounds whatsoever.
3. And finally this plane of self-realization, a space for myself where am left alone myself and with my thoughts. This is where it happens … the more i realize, the more i look inwards, the more lonelier i feel. All the books & writings point to a very simple fact of finding god within self and experience the oneness.And i just want that …. No more! But, am not even able to feel let alone “experience” – not even the distant presence of the vast oneness within me!

That calls for a still mind perhaps! :( In which case, am not even a toddler in that direction).

Oh but, how i would love to have a companion through this journey if not for the guiding spirit!

But something tells me, that I'll find what am looking for… if only i keep myself from straying away from the focus!