interesting read : ... they found that presenting the concrete architecture gives visibility of unexpected architectural interactions, and that the logical view (UML package diagram and class diagram) was the most useful in understanding the system

too tired today. Overslept and now stuck in traffic.

70% of uds completed. Feels good with the progress.

left ofc early. Got to select leather for sofa.

a sudden flash of thought - approach life with a reckless abandon! As in cooking!

It dawned upon me that the first application i launch every day is FF! subconsciously, addicted to the web!

feeling better mentally! the home interiors are shaping up good... hopefully expect things to get completed by another week / 10 days!

Reading .a whack on the side of the head.

finally done with moving the heavy weights up the apt. Now to get them within the wardrobes. It'll be a close call.

shifting heavy godrej bearaus to the new apt. Bummer the power is gone! Waiting for the elixir of modern life to be back.

solved a tricky problem for a colleague which had been persisting for a long time. stupid IE proxy issue!

checking up ping.fm... finally, got a beta code! yippie!

Thoughts from the past...part 1

Something which i had penned up a few years back, during one of those feeling "bare it all" moments! makes perfect sense upto this date! read on!

I have all things one would need to lead a comfortable life. Thank you my lord. You've given me all i "need".

But for this vaccum. An Empty feeling to go with!

It accompanies like a mandatory dessert thurst upon following a hearty meal onto a hunger starved stomach and thanks to the dessert - ending up with an upset stomach!

:) Yes! it does have a trace of humour in a way! In your own mysterious way!

The most trusted folks mistake me! When all looks just perfect and in serene harmony, off comes a storm from nowhere, sudden and unexpected. Issues of one or the other kind.

Well yes! Things do get settle down over a while, not very unlike the storm calming down eventually and ... alas - certainly leaving away the marks of its fury!

The impact is profuse, when it is with trusted folks!

Life, as am observing ... unfolds itself in an interesting cycle. Only the exact sequence of happenings & the duration does vary.

For starters, lets say ... it all starts on a happy note, there's this period of absolute bliss... Calm & Content feel all around.... in and out...@home, @office...health, wealth, friends & relatives.

..and then comes a twist!
something happens...
and the harmony is disrupted.

Lets say @ office... a sudden political issue/crisis crops up out of nowhere... or a project failure! It boils and boils and reaches its pinnacle... before finally subsiding ever so slowly... leaving for sure a trail of damages!

This phase, especially related to ofc gets me worried and insecure easily... and often shatters whatever is left of my ego. As the side effects it gets me onto a depressive cycle, and at times reaching to the extents of wrecking havoc on my confidence.

But again...! Things Change!

As and when just recovering from this, the next tide will fall over as fast as the previous. This time lets say it'd be the home front!
A new battlefield... sometimes the elders, sometimes the betterhalf, sometimes its myself and at times its the triggers from the outsiders ... the relatives!

Unprecedented ... unnecessary arguments, flares of anger, outbursts & showers of emotions. Though these would be very short lived (off late! :) and ever so thankful to the almighty). RCA most often than never, traces the core causes to misunderstandings, misinterpretations, perspectives... mostly driven by lack of patience and fueled by assumtions (thoughts without being voiced & confirmed for clarity).

Negativity...Distruptive emotions and assumptions take up the drivers' seat, pushing back the positive outlooks and magnanimous let go / forgive n forget attitude..., killing naivity, ignoring innocence ...

all in all in their combined chaos driving themselves and others with swells of pain!
Sigh!

As the sun rises bringing light to the day... day after day, driving away the darkness .. So does these issues subside and wane away, but surely after living up their tenure, as does the night lasts for 12 hours! :)

Then strikes the health factor! oh my! this one is pathetic of all!
Makes me hate doctors, nurses, hospitals, pharmacists & the pharma companies! (these are my personal experiences. there are certainly doctors and institutions i respect and take in awe - but they are a few in thousands if not in millions! :))

its a loooooooong post, and hence ... to be continued!

My fav. Snap of kiddo.

Took this when he was around 10 months!

did i say i changed my phone?

well, it wasn't a willful thing...
with all the trouble in taking calls, i would not have parted away with my p800!

alas, it happened so - one wretched day, on a foul mood and furious temper took away my rationale for a moment and the poor p800 had its final kiss of life on a mortal embrace with the wall, ending up a vegetable.

The display is gone totally, though i occasionally feel the starting tremors of the battery when i try to switch it on. I still have hopes to recover all the precious data within.

So, i switched on to a new phone.
Back to nokia after almost 4+ years with sony ericsson.

I got myself a slim n tall beauty - The nokia E51!
I should say, it has already found its place with me, seldom letting me remember the absence of my good old p800.

:) One of those very few material possessions i cherish for in life.

Music to ears...

Kiddo is forming words now... He's pretty active and keeps roaming around the house ... end to end... talking and cooing and making all sorts of sounds! :)

Delight to watch!
So sweet to watch him take shape ... growing bigger by the day and acquiring new skills. I miss him a lot. It is just 10 days since he's gone to his grandparents' house. and it seems eons.

What would i call this?!!!

To ponder!

Moving ahead...

After a span of almost 3.5 years, the fish moves (inevitably) out of the pond that had had become its home (alas, a Mirage that it turned out to be)! Not a good feeling at all, even though the new destination is a much bigger lake and is lush green, as the fish has to part with a father figure, who has invariably become a part of life - someone in whose presence the fish had grown accustomed to be in peace and a reassuring calmness.

And now, the fish is going to be in the wild as in the past! :)
SIGH! C'est la Vie! pour ne pas s'inquiéter. je survivrai !

Kiddo waves bye! :)

kiddo waved me bye today to office. :) it was a cute, sweet gesture, coming from the tiny tot and cheered me up, coming as a pleasant surprise! He has learnt to blabber bah-bye in his own childish language off late, but to see that he has learnt enough to co-ordinate the bye-bye with waving his tiny hands, as i set out in the car.
:) sweet moments of being a proud dad.

It sure would be a pleasant time watching him grow.

Choice!

I've a choice!

a. Keep thinking and analyzing about things not in my control and drive myself mad

or

b. just put an abrupt fullstop, muster all my strength and courage, pull myself from away this mental trauma and move ahead!


Murphy's laws shall hold good.
- Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.
- Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.
- If you think you are doing the right thing, chances are it will back-fire in your face.
- Just when you think things cannot get any worse, they will.
- No good deed goes unpunished.
- If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.
- If there are two or more ways to do something, and one of those ways can result in a catastrophe, then someone will do it.