kinda oddly named for an imaging portal...

http://www.auntminnie.com/ - somebody was mentioning (a colleague - i suppose) about auntminnie today (i was stumped kinda when i got him spell the name for me) - first glance tells me this is a treasure trove of info.

Yet to dive deeper!

in reference to: Radiology and Imaging News, Information, Education and Services (view on Google Sidewiki)

Another weekend zoomed past…

And i thought it was going to be difficult to kill time this weekend. and i proved to be wrong, thankfully!

#1. Working on my visual studio addin and reading – (simple..nothing hifi) helped on friday. And picking up dad from the railway station + some other small chores

#2. Saturday - dad’s birthday! & Sunday in puttaparthi –  a long bus journey (~5 hrs) after many months – and read through 3/4th of the first book of harry potter :) YES! me’s reading harry potter just now! Had nice dharshan @ parthi, met a kind lady who’s been a long time swami’s devotee & resident (thanks to dad) & got myself a swamy’s diary for 2010!

#3. Monday – back on to my comp. – with the addin & summarizing through the design school teachings & learnings, while working to complete the addin. By mid-day dad had developed a fever and took him to doc., by evening. He’s on medication, still running a temp. of 100-102. Late evening had the apartment owners’ meeting – and lo! this time, was better in control – not losing my temper / reacting much – in spite of the the usual provocations. And i’ve decided to hand over the maintenance responsibility to others. :)

But, too much of thoughts during the weekend, and felt more lonelier than ever (now too) (sathya & kiddo are at erode), the acute need for focus in priorities & a goal for self (thanks to other factors triggering these thoughts).

But anyways, as usual – getting over and finding things to keep me motivated! :) I Wish, really wish, i had/have friends close to heart! Hope this wish atleast comes true! :)

Test post

Hello world - from onboard vwada-ypr train - just off parthy!

On 9/20/09, Siva Rama Sundar <sivaramasundar@gmail.com> wrote:
> Hello world from parthy rly stn.
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> The Road goes ever on and on
> Down from the door where it began.
> Now far ahead the Road has gone,
> And I must follow, if I can,
> Pursuing it with eager feet,
> Until it joins some larger way
> Where many paths and errands meet.
> And whither then? I cannot say.
> Bilbo
> [JRR Tolkien, Lords of the Rings]
>

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The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
Bilbo
[JRR Tolkien, Lords of the Rings]

Negative waves…

Ask me how negative thoughts, a procrastinator and the “i’ve done my part” folks & ppl. who want to employ all their smartness in not taking ownership/responsibility but finding faults with others, even when we have a delivery the next day - can kill the waves of positive energy in and around them! Sigh!

But, am making progress here – certainly!

I Haven’t lost my temper, didn’t blow up and what more – was not even expressive of my feelings in the face (you’d know how much of a change it is – if you happen to know me personally :) )

But in spite of all this nonsensical (good) things, making me a balanced individual, I feel my passion has been dampened a lot.

No, by god’s grace, i haven’t let this affect me but only as a fuel for the fire to be on my toes and retain the best of the old ‘me’.

An energetic day…

A Wonderful day today … Very energetic start…

On an energetic day (such as today :)) – all the productive thoughts flood up – ideas, to-do's, best practices, wishes et. al, – all in one go! Way toooo many context switches i say!

I find it difficult in a way to handle such intense brain waves as they are very positive and i tend to lose them before capturing them in any form (as the successive waves come flowing in a torrent), so i can act upon them and track to completion.

How i wish to learn to master & control these thoughts, @ the speed of thought! :) :) :)

One memorable day @ ofc… :)

Second recognition, (or the step towards) i should say

I am nominated by some team mates, possibly from across teams (surprise, surprise) for the Best Employee of the month award.

But as the nominations & the result is announced at the same time, i get to see the nominees & winner at one go! :)

Well, NO i have not been awarded this time, but it certainly is a nice feeling to have been nominated.

That said, i’d have loved the reason for the nominations be more solid than what it seemed to be this time.

Let’s wait and watch!

Romantic weather and happy day(s)…

Oh Yes. Today certainly is romantic. Thanks to the beautiful weather.

Cloudy Blanket of Grey, a mildly cold wet breeze, pinhead drizzles … Just awesome!

Feels very European!

And a drive on the ORR, zooming in 80s, with nice songs from VettaiyaaduVelaiaadu & Unnale Unnale!

:) Gets be back to the dreamy old days, bitten by the travel bug … carefree and fearless!

And it was a happy nice weekend @ home too… Thanks to the kiddo with his cute chirpy blabbering & all that non stop jumping around. Ssssssssssoooo adorable!

Is it a crime to be a person not easily convinced?

Well, the question is about being penalised for being a person not easily convinced with things that happen around.

Be it at the office or at home! (Ahem! Looks like am on that ‘being the old bulldog’ path well in my 30’s than in my 60’s)

Am kinda dazed even as i write this.

{ Whenever am forced into a situation to think the way am doing now, this is the first question pops out to myself – “Am i what (even partly) that what i expect others to be?”

and me thinks that am not very unreasonable about that – as i don’t comment on things which i fundamentally don’t practice! And even when i do miss and get a googlee, am quick to accept & take the value out of it.

}

Oh, how much i yearn to be among people with fire! and be convinced about what am listening to and doing about!

Who’d be devoting all their smartness & intelligence in not finding ways to evade a task or challenge but to be game enough & have the guts to take the bull by the horns!

Who’d be not that cunning and conniving to not do things yet want the fruit of the same or even worse – being a ram (as in shaking the heads in acceptance) and sleeping over things.

Who’d not be whining about time and the complexity – even before giving a whole hearted try!

Who’d expect a pat as if they’ve done something great by getting the bag of garbage from their own homes to the bin out of the door?

Who can shamelessly point others’ faults while they themselves lie in the reeky stench of their own faults! - B**t***s!

And there’s this kind of wise ass cracks who wants to stick their neck out (always! if not ever) and be the god of finding faults while they don’t move a nail themselves!

If things aren’t the way they should be – ask and more importantly come up to the table & be bold enough to suggest a way out of the shit & follow the agreed solutions – walk the talk to reality!

Depend on others for every damn thing – and feel proud about their smartness - even for cutting vegetables?

Get a life losers – move up! It does hurt to be snubbed on the face with all your intelligence employed for the sake of nothing! Use it elsewhere! Make a difference!

Bull to Mediocrity!

{Please Imagine the gesture yourself! :) or may be i’d fish out an image for the same!

}

No, i’ve got to vent it out somewhere, sometime!

and This is it!

I feel so f*****g handicapped, not usually, but certainly in the state of mind that am in now!

Feels good to be …. Alive! :)

Yes – Really! After all these medicines & visits to the doctor and the uncertainties, coming to the office and getting back to do the routines is like … bliss! seriously!

A subtle reminder on how we take the life for granted!

Its good to be … Alive & Kicking! :) :)

A Time when Buddha would have killed himself…

So ironic that a single seat of power displaces the quotient of right & wrong! When an army massacres it becomes an act to protect its homeland & suppress the insurgents & cleansing & what not - while the same being done without the seat of power is rebellion and terrorism and what not!

Spite to thee – to that ethnic majority – a heartless mass of barbarians acting on the fury of ethnicity  – calling themselves the followers of a noble saint who loved peace and could never stand brutality let alone to kill a life form.

Not that such a thing is happening or happened elsewhere in the world – but this – this is happening to your own people. The ones who speak your language – and hardly a few hours’ away from you!

A Different kind of loneliness…

I have it all…

A generous share of happiness, an emotional rollercoaster of a family, equal share of concerns & issues… and the most precious of all, a rational & inquisitive mind – ever in search of knowledge and the ability to contemplate and accept, with a heart that places others before self!

It’s like being in multiple planes … of existence all at the same time.

1. A very physical & emotional web of people -  family, friends & relations – a mixed conservative arena with well set bounds!
2. Another plane of objective creativity – work, futuristic things et. al. with no bounds whatsoever.
3. And finally this plane of self-realization, a space for myself where am left alone myself and with my thoughts. This is where it happens … the more i realize, the more i look inwards, the more lonelier i feel. All the books & writings point to a very simple fact of finding god within self and experience the oneness.And i just want that …. No more! But, am not even able to feel let alone “experience” – not even the distant presence of the vast oneness within me!

That calls for a still mind perhaps! :( In which case, am not even a toddler in that direction).

Oh but, how i would love to have a companion through this journey if not for the guiding spirit!

But something tells me, that I'll find what am looking for… if only i keep myself from straying away from the focus!

From akilan & nasar on the death howls of eelam…

கடைசிச் சவம் வீழ்ந்த பின்பு

கட்டாயம் அறிவிக்கப்படும்

வெற்றி பெற்ற கடவுளின் பெயர்!

- s.a. nasar

(From the article on akilan’s book – from the anantha vikatan 2nd March Issue)

Heart wrenching!

What a following! :D hehehe…

Okie! My day is made! Thanks President! ;) That’s so considerate of you in the midst of all that saving the world – Am Honored!

ROFL!!!!

Tips for tweeting…

(from: http://realestatezebra.com/5-rules-for-using-twitter)

1) Don’t tell me what you are doing– tell me what you are thinking.

2) Don’t tell me where you are going– tell me what moves you.

3) Don’t just tell me you wrote a new blog post– tell me why you did it.

4) Don’t just notify– engage and inspire.

5) Make sure you follow, but also try to lead.

On second thoughts, this does apply for blogging as well!

Windows Live Writer…

Did i mention i started using windows live writer for blogging? Well, i should agree its a cool enough tool :) very much word like!

Nice features & simple to use!

More the use, more am i liking it.

Rather painful times and tidings…

Time for change? Not a question of choice anymore! :(

Being black/white and honestly expressive driven by the old value system - in this ***ked up world isn’t going to help me for sure! Hard realization. But life has to go on… and i

1. Have to learn to contain myself (which would be having an almost killing effect on me – given the expressive person that i am) and mask my emotions & expressions! :(
2. Have to learn to talk less! Mask More! (More than any logical reasoning one gives me, me & my style could simply be a threat to the long time pond dwellers!) – Roughly put, its hard to convince me in an argument/discussion unless i really really see the value! :(
3. Have to draw the long pending tough line of separation between work & life and learn to live with it! Work has been the key driving factor so long in my career and life. Now this heartbreaking separation has to be done, to keep me sane and not to *be reactive*! my foot! :(
4. Have to learn to fall in line with the flow, and allow myself to accept the idiosyncrasies and selfish attitudes driven by lack of sincerity and morality that am surrounded around! Not being a salmon anymore but one in the mass of a tuna shoal! (Ya, ya, but with the kind of shoal lacking the goodness / purpose of the need to be shoaling!)

All of a sudden i feel … terribly… Lonely! Is this another learning curve in life?

A Fish out of place!

A Fish almost heart broken and out of Water!

or…

remembering Tevye and his dialogues with god in  the fiddler on the roof…

Sometimes I wonder, when it gets too quiet up there, if You are thinking, "What kind of mischief can I play on My friend Tevye?

I know, I know. I am your chosen puppet. But, once in a while, can't You choose someone else?

Not today either!

Sucks! Am yet in office …. I wanted badly to leave home by 6! Just i wrapped up my tasks, i got this last minute bug assigned to my name – a critical one at that!

Thanks a ton – dearest – am stuck here! Every other soul has gone! and especially the old timers – they punctually keep up their time – at least for going home if not for the deliverables!

That makes me more resolved to blindly shutdown whatever tasks i have by 6 sharp and head home!

Tomorrow – Tomorrow Definitely!

Oh yeah! before i sign off…

This is *really* something i wanted to blog before i sign off for the day!

Location : Loo!

Yippie…Inching towards the 200 mark in my linked in network … 1 more to go! ;)

Yup..Yup..Yup

Numbers are nice for once!

Perhaps, i should set a target to myself to make this 300+ in another 3 months’ time! Time to get all known PICians to LinkedIn. hehe!